Hello, World....what I have been doing

I know I said I would blog but life has been utterly overwhelming the last few years with returning to school for my Master's Degree. The Lord has blessed me with so many blessings during this time. I am enjoying a little time off before I start back on Monday with school. The program I choose for my degree has been utterly wonderful. Liberty University is awesome program and uses the Lord throughout its curriculum as a focus. Love that fact. My kids are growing up so fast and so many changes every year. This upcoming year will see even more changes than anything more but I think for the best in the end. Elizabeth has settled into a routine for a online charter school which is excellent for her. She is learning and developing more skills everyday. Brendan, my wonderful and loving child, he is growing up so fast...he is a reading independently finally...he is always so busy and learning new things and trying more new things. He is growing socially and desires to make new friends all the time. I enjoy seeing this desire but it pains me as a mom seeing him struggle to figure out so many things about why and how the world works. Our kids have so much to learn but they must learn it some time. All one can do as mom is try to explain how the world can be such an amazing world but cruel at the same time. Thank the Lord He is there to guide us through and usually gives me the words to explain in mannerism that is understandable to my boy. He is so full of life and definitely embraces life on his beat and perspective. My children are my wonderful blessing from our Lord and the challenges that each present have taught me so much about myself that I can only wonder what the next few years will bring. Have you ever felt under attack from the world for your beliefs? Do not worry, I know that many do share my beliefs but many do not seem to live where I live. I struggle with so many things everyday? I am so conservative it seems difficult to find someone to share my beliefs with and innermost thoughts. I miss my friends dearly that moved away a couple years ago...my heart is still with them even though I do not get to talk to them near enough or see them. I hope one day soon the Lord will provide me with a friend locally that I confide my insecurities with that is secure in the Lord and find companionship when I feel lonely and isolated. My Lord has been there during many of these lonely times but the human side of me still desires that contact with a human, occasionally. One wonderful thing that has occurred while seeking this degree in counseling I have been forced to look into many dark places of my soul and face many family and personal demons. It has caused me to vanquish many old ghosts but I have had to do it with the Lord as my companion because there has been to much to bear for any one human. I could never say this in person because I am so proud so maybe putting it out in the world this way will let me move on to new and bigger blessings. Hears to the future of many wonderful and unknown blessings to come in our Lord!!!!!!!!!!