Journaling as a blessing.

I have been praying for a way to find the Lord's joy again. It seems of late that I have found it difficult to find. Since I have been doing this blog I have found it again. Praise the Lord. I use to journal to work through my feelings. Maybe this is my way of journaling and letting everything go to the Lord. Whatever it takes. Yesterday, was a good day. It was normal Valentine's day. I stopped expecting great things years ago. I have been disappointed by setting my expectations to high. So I have learned I get more pleasantly surprised when I treat it like a normal day. Sad to some but true. Personally, I have come to the thinking that Love should just not be one day a year but every day of the year. Between the love of my Lord and the love my family I have plenty each day. I made my husbands favorite dinner last night for him. It is ham and candied yams. He ate to much and made himself miserable. You would think by 40 something that you would learn when to say when. LOL Who am I to judge. He was pleasant and nice which is good for him. He usually comes home grumpy and tired even if I lay out a feast. We have been doing a study of Esther at the bible study that I go to. Today was good the Lord reminded that we all fall short till he calls us to our turning point. I always fall short of every second of every day. I try to do all that I do in his name and amazingly I always find his grace when I fall extremely short of it. I am so grateful for his son who died for our sins which allows to have this relationship with our Lord. He just lifts up my concerns and burdens them for me. That is such a huge blessing in itself. The trick is learning to trust the Lord to take these issues and let him have them and all work out in his time. It took a lot to get me to trust. I am stubborn and it takes more than a holy 2"x 4". I need a holy 4" x 6" at least. LOL I need to help my son do his math. Everyone have blessed wonderful day in our Lord.